Revealing Grace

There is a piece of paper in my car that reads: missionary= person of weakness relying fully on God's power and grace It is something I wrote while listening to a devotional this past summer. I kept thinking about the glorification of missionaries and the reality of a missionary life. The truth is that a missionary doesn't have it any more together than the average Christian. Sure, we chose to live our faith out differently but it doesn't make us the perfect Christian. . . heck, the only perfect Christian was Jesus! The truth is that the "missionary" life on the reservation is hard, not in ways that are seen but in the manner of who it makes you to be. I've lamented over this recently as I look at the person I was when I came to the rez and the person I am now. I came to the rez full of positivity, consistency in attitude and emotion, excited and ready to see what God had in store. Then as the years passed by I saw so many of the terrible things that ...

Planning a wedding. Goodness what a lot of work it is! I am finally getting married at the ripe old (or young) age of 26 and if you follow this blog you know that the last four years have sometimes been hard. Everyone was getting married, having babies, and it all looked so easy. To add to the noise, in the midst of my boyfriend-less world there was never a lack of young, married, happy people who had some advice for their single friends. "It will come when you least expect it!" (true) "If you just stop looking, stop wanting it, he will show up!" (not true) "When you find the right guy the waiting will have been worth it!" (half true, the waiting still sucked) "That guy is a Christian. . . date him." (seriously??) Though the advice was all well-intentioned it wasn't always the most helpful, but much of what my married friends didn't know they were teaching me was  extraordinarily useful. Being "married last," I hav...