Revealing Grace

I have been thinking for the past few days about love. I always thought I understood what love is. This powerful word that we say so easily and so easily claim. I thought that I understood love, but recently I have questioned: what does love actually look like? What is love in action ? What happens when I quit just saying the word and I start living a life of selfless love? __________ When I was single, I would try to gain the affections of some or another guy. My desire was not that they would let me love them , but that if I worked hard enough then they would love me back. It was a selfish desire, not a selfless one. And the trend of my singleness, I believe, is common. We so easily get easily swayed into a selfish love without even realizing it. We do things to please the other person, hoping that it will in turn make them love us more. We serve our husband or wife in the name of love, but we are actually hoping to get something in return. It masks itself as true love, but r...

*Disclaimer: This post was written one year ago , almost to the day. I did not post it then for fear that it was too vulnerable, but I feel like I need to post it now. Too many people give into depression and suicide because we don't talk about it. I hope that this experience will give someone else hope that they are not alone, and that maybe they will, like me, take steps towards healing. If you (whether I know you or not) ever need someone to talk to, please contact me. We need each other in this world, and no one should feel the depths of pain alone.* Written: May 2016 I've debated on whether I write about this too much. I've debated that maybe I don't write about this enough. So if it sounds like you've read it before, feel free to move on. If not, stick around. Probably this post is more for me than you anyways. To start with, I think there is this misconception that if you are single you can work more because you don't have a family. This is dumb. J...