A Countdown

29 days until I get to be back in the loving arms of the SouthEast.
39 days until my solo road trip to Arizona.
41 days until I arrive at Fort Apache Indian Reservation for two months with Apache Youth Ministries.

Who would have known when I graduated a year ago that this would be life?
Certainly not me.
I think the unexpected is what makes it all so beautiful and exciting.

"The human mind plans the way, but the Lord directs the steps." Proverbs 16:9

Taken a year ago yesterday. Who knows what crazy thing we were doing but I like to think this epitomizes the unexpected nature, and excitement, of the journey. 

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